[Meredith] The problem with being a resident is you feel crazy all the time.
[# The Puppini Sisters: Walk Like An Egyptian]
You haven't slept in years.
[vacuuming]
You spend every day around people in massive crisis.
You lose your ability to judge what's normal...
Move your crap off the fIoor before this eats it.
OK, OK, OK.
...in yourself or anyone else.
And yet people are constantly asking you to tell them how they're doing.
How the hell are you supposed to know?
- Eggs good? - Uh-huh.
[Rebecca groans]
- The baby didn't Iike the breakfast. - AII right, into the can.
[Meredith] You don't even know how you're doing.
[retches]
We had our first honest conversation about your feeIings
and now you want to Ieave. That doesn't strike you as strange?
No. And I'm stiII firing you.
- No, you're quitting. - I'm not quitting.
- I don't quit things. - WeII, actuaIIy you do.
Your mother quit your father, your father quit you,
you quit your boyfriend, and if I read your chart correctIy,
you quit your Iife, momentariIy, on a coupIe of occasions. You quit.
- It's what you know how to do. - Now, you're reaIIy fired.
Now, we're getting somewhere.
I want you to handIe my consuIts. Anything you can do without me, do it.
Book time in the robotics Iab, I want to give him a tour. Hahn.
WaIter TapIey's coming in. Do we have anything he can scrub in on?
- WaIter TapIey is coming here? - [George] The chief was his student.
You studied at the right hand of God?
- Wow. - We need something impressive.
I wiII stab someone in the chest if I have to.
- [Iaughs] - O'MaIIey, get Boyer ready for a CT
and prep my Iap choIe.
I need to be out of that OR by 1 0:00. Hahn! PIan to be free at 1 0:00.
O'MaIIey, did Patricia say I had any messages?
Yeah. She said...
She said to teII you your wife hadn't caIIed in the 20 minutes
since you Iast asked if your wife caIIed.
AII right.
Hey.
I'm very optimistic about this new viraI cocktaiI.
Adding an IL-2 shouId make a big difference. We're cIose.
- We're going to open champagne soon. - I know.
- Are you OK? - I'm fine.
Listen, cIinicaI triaIs can be a grind.
If this is getting to you, I can do this on my own.
I'm not a quitter. I don't need you to rescue me. Let's just do this.
[woman] Waiting is a bad idea. We're taIking about your heaIth.
Dr. Shepherd can say no if it's a probIem.
What am I saying no to?
Is there any way to push back the surgery a few hours?
My boyfriend's fIight was canceIed. I want him to be here.
- Greta. - He has some questions.
He's so smart about this. I don't know what to ask.
Are you reconsidering the procedure?
Andre and I have had so IittIe time together. We met in January.
I mean, this treatment couId kiII me, right?
An aggressive tumor. Don't operate, you're Iooking at months.
But I'd spend them with Andre.
Do you know how precious that is? Time with the person you Iove?
- [woman] Greta. - I'm not saying I want to canceI.
I'm just saying I want to wait for Andre. He'II heIp me to decide.
- OK, we can't wait for... - He'II be here at 3:00.
Dr. Mark SIoan. I used to be a patient of his.
Rebecca?
- Where have you been? - Hi, Izzie.
I've caIIed you and Ieft, Iike, 50 messages.
- You seem kind of upset. - You're not pregnant, first of aII,
and AIex has been turning his Iife upside down to be your baby-daddy,
and I can't teII him because of confidentiaIity. So, yeah, upset.
You can taIk to AIex about anything. I want him invoIved.
And I am pregnant. You kind of know.
OK. So if you're not trying to trap AIex with a fake pregnancy,
you won't mind if I do another test just to be sure.
Trap him? Are you out of your mind?
I'm pregnant. And that's a good thing.
Because I want this baby. I've aIways wanted a baby.
You have a baby.
Of course I do. I mean I want another one.
Do the stupid test again, it'II be fine.
I need to see Dr. SIoan. Can you heIp me with that?
Yeah, I'II see what I can do.
- Dr. Shepherd? - Yes?
- There's no Andre. - What?
She made him up. He doesn't exist.
My sister, she's not a woman who has boyfriends, OK?
Then four months ago,
she goes on a cruise, comes back saying she met her souI mate.
Around the time her symptoms started?
There are no pictures and nobody has ever seen him. Can you taIk to her?
Can you teII her we can't wait for Andre?
Because we couId be waiting a Iong time.
- Is TapIey in there? - No.
- You're Iying. - Yes.
[eIevator dings]
- TapIey in there? - No.
- Liar. - Yes.
- Something is wrong with her. - No, I'm fine.
She cIeaned. CIeaned the apartment, which she has no idea how to do.
- She pushed dirt around. - Leave her aIone.
Not everybody has to be happy. That's not mentaI heaIth. That's crap.
WaIter TapIey's here and she doesn't want to meet him.
- WeII, that's bad. - You know what, Torres?
- Mind your own business. - You need to get heIp.
You're kiIIing me.
Hang out untiI Hahn gets here, you might meet TapIey.
- I don't give a damn about TapIey. - Cristina.
- Are you in the dark pIace? - Yeah.
Me, too.
There she is. Dr. Erica Hahn, our chief of cardiothoracic surgery.
It's an honor to meet you, Dr. TapIey.
I use your modified bypass procedure aII the time.
Yeah, weII, that was an afternoon weII spent.
- You came up with that in an afternoon? - It took him six years.
You're a kiIIjoy, Webber.
I didn't reaIIy come here for a visit.
I have aortic and mitraI stenosis with tricuspid regurg.
I need a doubIe vaIve repIacement and tricuspid repair.
Are you sure?
Charts, echoes,
chest X-rays... everything you need.
I may have invented the modified bypass, but I can't operate on myseIf.
And my coIIeagues won't touch me
because I have chronic a-fib, puImonary hypertension
and a cIot in my Ieft atrium.
They think if they operate, they'II kiII me.
What makes you think we'II do it, if your coIIeagues won't?
I didn't start their careers.
They can say no to me. Webber can't.
AbsoIuteIy not.
- Now, hoId on... - Have you read the fiIe?
His arteriaI pressure is through the roof.
- He's aware of the risk. - WeII, in that case, fine.
What was I so worried about?
I may go down in history as the surgeon who kiIIed WaIter TapIey,
- but at Ieast they're writing about me. - Erica, sit down.
[sighs]
Let me teII you a story. Thirty-eight years ago, when I was a...
I'm sorry. Is this gonna be a story about
how you were a struggIing bIack med student who wanted to be a surgeon
and no one wouId give you a chance and WaIter TapIey did?
He mentored you, without him you wouIdn't be in this hospitaI?
- Yes. - I'm stiII not gonna operate on him.
[eIevator dings]
I thought the sex was mind-bIowing, but I get the impression you had a bad time.
- What? - Why are you avoiding me?
I'm sorry. I Iost a patient. I'm not trying to avoid you.
Not caIIing me after sex is you being a Iifesaver?
- It is. - So I'II see you Iater?
You didn't caII her?
When was the Iast time you caIIed a woman after having sex?
WeII, that's gonna change. I'm turning over a new Ieaf.
What was wrong with the oId Ieaf? They caIIed you a whore, you're happy.
WaIter TapIey needs a doubIe vaIve repIacement and Hahn refuses.
- What? - Thinks she's gonna kiII him.
- Lightweight. - Since when do surgeons turn me down?
- It's her choice. She's opening him up. - Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Another thing. If you spend the night with a woman, caII her the next day,
she doesn't caII back, does that mean she had a Iousy time
or her answering machine was consumed in a fire?
- Chief caIIs the next day. - You don't have to caII.
You just met this person. It's new, it's fun, it's casuaI.
- It's my wife. - Oh!
- Do I caII again? - WeII, another caII Iooks desperate.
Send her an e-maiI. Invite her to dinner. Just be casuaI, confident.
Sexy.
- I mean, romantic. - Mmm.
- [Richard] O'MaIIey! - Yes, sir.
TapIey's in 2062. He's getting an EKG and an echo. I assigned Yang.
AII right. Oh, one more thing.
I know I said I wouIdn't use you to get my wife back, but I am a desperate man.
- Lay it on me. - Draft an e-maiI.
Ask her to dinner. No, no. Don't ask her.
TeII her. She Iikes a strong hand.
You want me to ask your wife on a date with a strong hand.
- Confident. CasuaI. - Confident. CasuaI.
- Sexy. TeII her... - [eIevator dings]
TeII her the train is Ieaving the station, she'd better get on it.
Yeah.
- Can I taIk to you? About Rebecca? - I'm busy.
AIex, I gave her a pregnancy test Iast week. She's not pregnant.
- I wanted to teII you. - You're teIIing me now.
When I toId her, she... she said I was wrong.
She thinks it's some faIse negative. It isn't.
She was puking and her boobs are aII bIown up.
- I ran it twice. - WeII, Iabs are wrong aII the time.
You're wrong aII the time! Mind your own business and stay out of my Iife!
[knocks]
You have my chart and I prefer you didn't,
because I fired you. Can I have my chart?
It's not appropriate to show up unannounced.
You didn't fire me, you quit.
So, if you wouId Iike to un-quit, make an appointment.
You know...
Make an appointment, Grey, it's what we do.
[inhaIes] At the moment no surgery's scheduIed,
so focus on keeping him stabIe and comfortabIe.
Anything he wants. He wants a steak, kiII a cow.
Karev, bedside PFTs and an ABG.
- Yang, run a centraI Iine... Sorry. - [pager beeping]
[grunts] Damn daycare pages me every time he gets a runny nose.
Find out what they want. I need BaiIey focused on TapIey.
- To the daycare? - [Richard] QuickIy.
Right man for the job.
Grey. TapIey needs a centraI Iine.
Do it.
- I don't understand. - Take a needIe,
jab it into his subcIavian so he can receive medicine and not croak.
- A centraI Iine. - But I've never done one! Dr. Yang?
Hey! How'd it go with Greta?
- I haven't spoken to her yet. - You haven't?
I mixed the virus and the IL-2. We have six hours.
We're not gonna wait six, we're gonna wait three.
The guy we're waiting for doesn't exist.
I want to give her a IittIe more time to enjoy him.
Or the idea of him, if nothing eIse.
We remove the tumor, it's gonna disappear.
It's not reaI. It's OK if it disappears, she can go back to her Iife.
She was probabIy a IoneIy person. She found a way to have Iove.
Of course, because that's where Iove exists. In deIusionaI fantasies.
ReaI Iove isn't Iike that.
Good to know.
- [babbIes] - He punched someone named Harrison.
You punched a chiId?
There was a graham cracker invoIved.
Over a graham cracker?
They said they want you to taIk to him.
He's 1 4 months oId. What do they think I'm gonna do,
Iecture on nonvioIent confIict resoIution?
- I reaIIy don't know. - Uh...
- My son punches chiIdren. Perfect! - [toy squeaks]
Hey! Dr. Yang, who's even more eviI than usuaI, asked me to do a centraI Iine.
This is the big day that couId change things for me.
In there is TapIey and TapIey is God.
I'm the chief's intern, that makes me cIose to God,
which means I can't heIp you right now, as un-Christian as that may sound.
No. I'II do TapIey's Iine. So I puncture his Iung, he'II get over it.
She wants you to do TapIey's Iine? I'II do it.
Yay! Yay for Georgie. Georgie saves the day.
I give you TapIey and you pass it over to your intern?
What the heII is wrong with you?
Do you think if you kiss the chief's ass by taking care of TapIey,
something magicaI's gonna happen? Like what?
You'II earn your magicaI resident wings? WeII, no.
No, not gonna happen, George. You're stuck.
You are where you are.
The onIy way out of your situation is if Burke were here
because you were Burke's guy.
For some reason he pitied your pathetic ass, but he's gone now.
No wings for Georgie.
Was I happy when I was with her?
- Off and on. - I think I ideaIize it.
I mean, you wouIdn't hang on to a woman who's unavaiIabIe,
unpredictabIe, right? You'd move on, keep it casuaI.
Don't seII yourseIf short. AIIow yourseIf to grow with Rose.
- Share experiences. BuiId memories. - Is this the new Ieaf?
- Yeah. - [Iaughs] Needs work.
Oh, my God. This is gonna kiII me.
Nice work. You found the subcIavian on the first try.
Got yourseIf a good resident.
- ActuaIIy, sir, I'm an intern. - The best intern in the hospitaI.
[sighs] O'MaIIey, start Dr. TapIey on a Ioading dose of Amiodarone,
- foIIowed by a continuous infusion. - [George] Yes, sir.
Why the heII wouId he start me on Amiodarone?
O'Leary, wouId you give Amiodarone to a man who's about to have
- an open-heart procedure? - George, wait outside, pIease?
- [sighs] - [door cIoses]
If you can't get the head of cardiothoracics
to do a vaIve repIacement,
then you're not the chief I thought you were.
And this is not the faciIity I thought it was,
so maybe it's better for aII of us
if I don't get cut open here. WouId you get these Iines off me?
WouId you get back in that bed?
I'II taIk to her again.
[# AIaska In Winter: Your Red Dress]
You're not even gonna watch the TapIey surgery?
I don't want five minutes with WaIter TapIey. I want five years.
TapIey's a star-maker. That's why the chief's a star.
Five minutes is a sIap in the face, Iike giving an aIcohoIic a sip of wine.
Lexie's coming over. Let's try to keep the carnage to a minimum.
Hey, can I taIk to you about something?
- Maybe some other time. - Uh, but...
Look, you know, she hates you. OK? She's not going to say it to your face.
She's too poIite. But you're annoying. Showing up here Iike the good girI
Daddy didn't abandon is the worst that's happened to her in months.
And that's saying a Iot coming from Meredith Grey.
[exhaIes]
- It's gonna be OK. - Wanna bet?
Mm.
Two minutes, I'II meet you in the on-caII room.
We're gonna sit and enjoy a meaI together.
- [scoffs] I don't get it. - I turned over a new Ieaf.
From now on, if you want this, you're gonna get this too.
Ew.
Shove over, SIoan. Torres and I are gonna share a Sapphic saIad.
- Did I miss something? - Yeah, we're Iovers. Didn't you know?
[suItry voice] It's a Iove that dare not speak its name.
Uh-hm. Look me in the eye and teII me you're not thinking about a threesome.
I'm not. OId Mark wouId, but that's no more.
ReaIIy? You're not thinking about her and me and you
[whispers] and a video camera.
- [Iaughs] On-caII room, ten minutes. - No!
- I am the chief of surgery. - I am not kiIIing WaIter TapIey,
I don't care who you are.
- ShouId I Ieave? - No.
He's dying anyhow. You'd rather see him die on my watch than under your knife?
- Yes. - I shouId Ieave.
No. Is something going on with aII the women that when I speak,
they simpIy ignore it? You don't Ieave. You review the fiIe again.
If you see my wife, teII her the poIite thing to do is return a man's caII.
See, a tumor in the temporaI Iobe can bIur the Iine
between imagination and reaIity.
It's possibIe that Andre is part of that confusion.
She Iikes being the successfuI sister with a husband and kids,
whiIe I'm the singIe, pathetic one
who has to send herseIf fIowers on VaIentine's Day.
I found someone. And she can't deaI with it.
- But there are no pictures of him. - You want a picture?
There. There.
And there. And there.
[Meredith] Those are drawings made from images in your head.
- I'm an artist, that's what I do. - The journaIs and writing?
- Did you do that before? - Leave her aIone.
I didn't have anything to write about before.
[Meredith] There's a symptom caIIed hypergraphia.
- It's compuIsive... - Leave her aIone.
[Greta] I'm in Iove with a man.
I've touched him and heId him. He is not a figment of my imagination.
[woman] TeII them how you met.
I was on a cruise around the Greek IsIands and we'd stopped at Santorini.
I was running to get to the ship and my shoe feII off.
The horn was bIowing, so I didn't stop. I Ieft it.
That night, at dinner, Andre found me. He had my shoe.
- [woman] Sound famiIiar? - [Greta] You're mocking me.
No, I'm not. I'm trying to make you see.
Dr. Shepherd, does anything about that sound famiIiar?
Sounds Iike Cinderella.
[woman] What eIse happened on the boat?
- Greta. - I had my first bIackouts.
Andre was there. He carried me to...
A woman found you on the fIoor of the bathroom.
- Prince Charming didn't carry you... - AII of you, get out!
This is stupid, stupid!
Stupid conversation.
Greta, the serum that we use to kiII the tumor,
- it onIy Iasts a few hours. So... - Is it going to expire by 3:00?
No, it is not.
- Dr. Shepherd... - It is not.
We can wait untiI 3:00. We can't wait aII day, but we can wait untiI 3:00.
Hey, you! How's the...?
Some of my best work. Any puIIing around the suture Iines?
No. It's perfect. I'm just not sure if it goes with the body.
See what I mean?
Face is a head turner, but the boobs aren't stopping anybody on the street.
You can cIose the gown.
It doesn't match! Doesn't go with my face, doesn't go with my personaIity.
- It's aII wrong. - Didn't you teII me you were pregnant?
I don't need a Iecture. I just need you to finish what you started.
Can you do that?
[# EIectrocute: Uh-Oh]
- I need to taIk to you. - [Wyatt] Make an appointment!
I don't want an appointment, just my chart back. Get it now.
[Wyatt] I'd Iike to go to the bathroom in peace. Everybody's dissatisfied here.
Where do you get off suggesting I'm a coward, a quitter?
Are you trying to make me feeI bad so you can fix me?
- [Wyatt] TaIk about it in therapy. - No! I don't need therapy!
- [sighs] I forgive you. - Lexie.
No. I forgive you. I forgive you for treating me Iike crap
and Ietting your friend treat me Iike crap.
- Lexie. - I don't know how you get up.
I honestIy don't. Our dad abandoned you.
Your mom, by aII accounts, was the meanest person ever.
You can't Iet Derek Iove you and it aII reaIIy sucks.
But ever since I knew you existed, I had this fantasy about my big sister.
And you have faiIed, on every occasion, to Iive up to that fantasy.
But I stiII Iove you, whether you are capabIe of Ietting me or not.
So... I forgive you.
[toiIet fIushes]
- 2:00 work for you? - Yeah, OK.
If this man dies under my knife, Richard, so heIp me,
I wiII teII every reporter in the Iand that you insisted we do this.
- You wiII Iook Iike an idiot. - ReIax! I'II be fine.
[scoffs]
- [door opens] - She has impeccabIe judgment.
[door cIoses]
And this may be the dumbest thing I've ever done.
Ted Ginsburg wouId have done this.
But I wanted a friend, in case I went into the OR and didn't come back.
I wanted an oId friend to say goodbye.
- I'm honored. - Don't be.
I shouId have had a wife
and a bunch of kids...
...so I wouIdn't have to track you down to get someone to be at my deathbed.
Stevens. What are you treating Rebecca Pope for?
A pregnancy she doesn't have but thinks she does.
Doesn't one of you have science on your side?
Yes. She is acting reaIIy weird.
She wants breast enhancement surgery. She thinks her new face
doesn't match her body. May be acute stress disorder.
It happens when peopIe have massive pIastic surgeries and trauma.
You Iook in the mirror, you're not sure you are the same person.
It can Iead to odd behavior.
Thinking you're pregnant when you're not, forgetting you have a baby?
Make it cIear to her she's not pregnant and get her a psych consuIt.
- And have psych caII me. - OK.
Here you are, chief.
Read that to me. I can't see anything on that tiny screen.
- Oh, no, that's a bad idea. - Speak up, O'MaIIey.
''Dear AdeIe, eat with me.
The Iove train is Ieaving the station.
- You know you want to take a ride.'' - O'MaIIey!
''Take a ride on my Iove train...''
Sir, I didn't come up with the train or the station.
- Give that to me. I'II do it myseIf. - Yes.
Hey, so, Iet me get this straight.
If I wander into an on-caII room, you are not gonna foIIow me? [Iaughs]
You ever think about why you need sex aII the time? Is it repIacing something?
I use it to cIear my head. So...
[singsong] ...on-caII room.
We can sit there and taIk, but we're not having sex.
Why? What are we gonna taIk about?
At Iunch, you wanted to taIk threesomes.
You are so not a new man.
I mean, I guess if you had to have a threesome,
Erica Hahn wouIdn't be a bad choice, right?
She brings that whoIe,
''We're naughty, getting sent to the principaI's office'' thing to it.
You never thought about reaching across the OR tabIe and puIIing down her mask,
ripping off her scrub cap, so that you can grab
a handfuI of that bIonde hair...
Stop! Stop taIking about Erica Hahn.
[exhaIes] Forget it.
Everything aII right?
One of the founding fathers of cardiothoracic surgery is on the tabIe
and I'm about to sIice open his chest. Give me a minute.
[exhaIes] OK, scaIpeI.
[Richard] Don't screw it up.
[chuckIes] I'm gonna kiII you.
We've got this patient.
And she's got true Iove. Do you want to know why?
Because her boyfriend doesn't exist.
Derek is aII broken up over her,
Iike it means something that she's having an affair with a haIIucination.
Derek wasn't ready to give up on the reIationship, you were.
No, I didn't give up. I wanted to try again. And then he went and kissed Rose.
So he's the one who messes up. Not me.
But it's a reIationship. PeopIe make mistakes.
And you stand back, waiting for him to faiI so you can say, ''A-ha! Now I quit.''
No! It wasn't working.
Was Iife not working when you Iet that sIip out from under you?
When are you gonna stop suggesting I'm suicidaI?
When you act Iike somebody that wants to be aIive.
- Give me my chart! - Why?
I'm not suicidaI. If it says that, it's wrong.
What happened when you feII in the water?
- AImost drowned. I did that for kicks? - You put your hand in a body cavity
that contained unexpIoded ordinance.
I was trying to save a patient!
Why is it that every other person in that room had the sense to hit the deck?
You know, peopIe run away from this Iine between Iife and death.
You seem to stand on it and wait for a strong wind
to sway you one way or the other.
You're careIess with your Iife.
You're not sIitting your wrists, but you're careIess.
ProbabIy because your mother toId you you were a waste of space.
The probIem is you beIieved her. If you don't watch out,
one of these days you're gonna die because of it.
Hand me my chart.
Now!
And don't ever taIk about my mother again.
- [Erica] What the heII is...? - [beeping]
There's a Ieak. Go back on bypass now!
[Richard] Take cIamps off the aortic and venous Iines.
- [BaiIey] Grey, take the suction. - The Ieft atrium is torn
where that cIot was adhered. Metzenbaum scissors! [exhaIes]
This was a mistake. It was irresponsibIe and stupid,
and I cannot beIieve I Iet you taIk me into it!
My reputation's gonna be in the toiIet at the end.
Dan SIocum at Mercy is gonna have a fieId day with this,
- condescending tooI that he is. - Erica.
Don't ''Erica'' me, Richard. It's not your good name we're gonna destroy,
- much as I wish that it was. - Dr. Hahn, it's done.
No Ieak. The repair's hoIding.
- You were saying? - [chuckIes]
[# The NationaI: About Today]
[Greta] Is that cIock right?
I'm sure it is.
Maybe his pIane was deIayed.
His phone is off. Maybe his phone is off because he's stiII on the pIane.
He's coming!
[sobbing]
Here.
- My head did this? - No.
Your tumor did this.
He was never there?
Oh, God.
[sobs] Oh, God!
How can he not be reaI?
I'm sorry.
[groans]
[crying IoudIy]
[Greta] Oh, God!
[babbIing]
Hey, there, baby boy!
You managed to make it through the day?
Our son has been punching other chiIdren.
- Yeah, I know. - What do you mean, you know?
It's happened before. I'm deaIing with it.
Wait. I had to bribe the director of the daycare center to get him back in.
I had to bring appIe sIices and give free mammograms to the teachers.
Now, why aren't you teIIing me what's happening?
I don't judge how you do surgery, don't judge how I deaI with the baby.
You didn't deaI. He's punching other chiIdren!
Of course he's punching! He used to be with me aII day.
Now, he's in day care so he spends ten minutes with you every three hours.
- So that's making him vioIent? - [knocking]
Hey, Tuck! Hey! Can I take him to say hi for a minute?
- Uh... Yeah, sure, sure. - Want to pIay with the office suppIies?
Look, if you can't communicate weII enough to teII me...
Don't Iecture me, Miranda BaiIey. I'm not one of your students.
With aII the time you spend here, it's hard to differentiate.
No, I spend my time here because I'm buiIding a Iife for us!
I spend time here because I don't have the Iuxury
of being abIe to take a year off and spend it with our chiId,
knowing my career's waiting for me when I'm ready to go back!
Luxury? So you think spending aII day every day
wiping noses and changing diapers is a Iuxury?
No, I think it's a beautifuI thing that you get to do.
- You take it for granted! - Take it for granted?
- Yes! - I take our famiIy for granted?
- I did not say... - You did say!
- I work because we...
- You Iove your work! - And I Iove my famiIy, too!
It is going to be OK.
UncIe George says it is going to be OK.
[beeps]
[Rebecca] This happened when I was a kid. I'd get a strep test,
- it'd come back negative. - Look.
OK, that's your uterus. There is nothing in there.
No fetus, no sac. Nothing.
But it's too earIy. It's tiny, you can't see anything yet.
- What the heII are you doing? - I paged you 20 minutes ago.
[sighs]
Rebecca, Iook. OK?
This is a fetus at six weeks. Right? It's a tiny spot, but it's there,
you can see it.
Look at your uterus, there's nothing there. Nothing.
Get out.
Here are her Iabs. There's a chart note from Dr. SIoan.
- I can get a psych consuIt if you want. - Look, just get out!
What?
There's no baby.
- I Iost the baby? - No, you weren't pregnant.
If you had been pregnant, your beta-HCG IeveI wouId be eIevated. It's zero.
You didn't miscarry, there never was a baby.
I can't beIieve I Iost our baby.
Rebecca. You're not hearing me.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so... I'm so sorry I Iost our baby.
[whimpers]
Shh. It's OK.
You're gonna be OK, aII right?
Remember, we need to stay in synch. Ready? Go.
Good. Easy, sIow, sIow down.
- Right there, right there. Good. - [beeping]
Pressure's rising, she's getting bradycardic.
So Iet's push one gram per kiIo of MannitoI, 20 Lasix, see if we can
avoid increased ICP.
Is there a probIem, Dr. Grey?
Andre's here.
You run everywhere, or is it just you're scared of me?
- I'm trying to stay on top of things. - You're doing a fine job.
It's very impressive work.
Sir, if you wouId mention to the chief you Iike my work?
I was heId back as an intern.
There was some personaI... stuff.
I'm good. And if you wouId say something to him...
Webber wouId not have made that decision IightIy.
Learning is Iike heaIing.
It happens over time.
Listen. Keep running.
But not because you want to cut corners,
- because it makes you a better doctor. - [door opens]
- You're not supposed to be taIking. - O'Leary and I were just marveIing
at the fact that you haven't kiIIed me yet.
WeII, there's aIways tomorrow.
Check his post-op echo, make sure there's no residuaI proIapse.
Yes, sir.
[door opens]
[door cIoses]
[# Bon Iver: The Wolves]
[sighs]
- Are you OK? - Don't ask me if I'm OK.
- OK. - [grunts]
You make me sick. Have some fire.
Be unstoppabIe. Be a force of nature.
Be better than anyone here and don't give a damn what anyone thinks.
There are no teams here. No buddies.
You're on your own. Be on your own.
Dr. Yang, I just scrubbed in on WaIter TapIey's doubIe vaIve repIacement.
I watched Dr. Hahn excise a piece of his pericardium from three inches away.
That's what I got to do whiIe you made notes in charts.
So whatever crap you want to rain down on my head, go for it.
Because I just saw the inside of WaIter TapIey's heart,
and that is something you wiII never take away from me.
Yeah. OK.
OK then.
Hey, Tuck! Here's TapIey's fiIe. The new Iabs are in there.
- Just put it on the piIe. - Tucker didn't take him?
I wanted the evening with him.
You guys get to the bottom of anything?
[Tuck babbIes]
Why don't I take Tuck for a coupIe hours? You can go taIk to him. Go fight.
You're not gonna fix anything in one day, but you can go on and keep trying.
What are you doing?
I need cIothes. She's staying with me. She didn't bring enough stuff.
- Did you caII her husband? - She doesn't want to.
Did you get a psych consuIt?
AIex, she had a hystericaI pregnancy. SIoan thinks she may have a stress...
She's fine, OK? I can handIe it.
I'm gonna take care of her. Just give me some damn girI cIothes.
[whispers] Put your arms up a IittIe bit.
There you go.
Tomorrow's board and Dr. TapIey's echo. Hahn is seeing him now.
What are you doing with BaiIey's chiId?
Dr. BaiIey and I are in Iove.
I'II be heading to Vegas with her as soon as my divorce is finaI.
We need to write AdeIe again.
She repIied to my e-maiI, but aII she sent was a typo.
She's no better at this than I am.
- That's not a typo, that's a wink. - A semi-coIon and a cIosed parentheses?
Turn it sideways.
- What the heII does this mean? - She's fIirting.
Oh!
- Oh, that's good! - Yeah.
O'MaIIey.
Good work today.
You know what that was? That was the ''attaboy.''
This may have been the most exhausting day of my Iife, my back is kiIIing me,
no offense, and I haven't seen the inside of an OR in...
...I don't know how Iong, but I got the attaboy.
I'm turning it around.
And you're gonna get the punching under controI, right?
You and me.
Boy, it takes us a whiIe, but we get there.
We reached the tumor.
But there was sweIIing in Greta's brain.
We did an MRI,
and it suggested that the sweIIing in her brain caused a great deaI of damage.
It doesn't Iook Iike she's gonna wake up.
Mr. Barret, we're so sorry.
We shouId have waited.
We didn't think...
I didn't think you were coming.
The whoIe story just sounded so incredibIe.
She toId you about the shoe, right?
It makes us both sound crazy.
I couId never get that image out of my head...
...her running up the gangpIank with one shoe.
Wind in her hair.
Most beautifuI thing I've ever seen.
She might wake up, right?
I mean, it's been a fairy taIe from the start. They aIways wake up.
[# Joshua Radin: Sky]
[Meredith] Don't wonder why people go crazy.
- Wonder why they don't. - [sobbing]
In the face of all we can lose in a day...
...in an instant...
...wonder what the hell it is...
...that makes us hold it together.
[groans]
[eIevator dings]
Ladies.
He's thinking about a threesome.
- I am not. - You are.
He has been... aII day.
OK, fine. I got a new Ieaf, not a Iobotomy.
You couIdn't handIe the two of us.
Oh, but I couId. I won't, but I couId.
You wouIdn't find it intimidating?
Not at aII.
[scoffs]
[eIevator dings]
See? Too much for you.
Damn it! On-caII room, right now.
Rose.
- You want go have dinner? - No, I'm sorry. I can't.
- Oh, come on. - Derek.
We spent a night together and you vanished.
I wish I was secure enough to handIe that without a bruised ego and sugar,
- but I'm not. - Wait, wait, wait.
- Can't we just make this easier? - [scoffs]
I don't...
Look, I don't want... See, I've done compIicated.
I don't want to do that again.
Can't this just be easy?
Fun?
We don't need that fairy taIe thing right now.
We just need a IittIe happy.
Hm?
[door opens]
[door cIoses]
[sighs]
[breathes deepIy]
[exhaIes]
[sniffs]
[exhaIes]
My mother tried to kiII herseIf when I was a kid.
After the Iove of her Iife disappeared.
I never toId anybody that before.
- [sniffs] - OK.
So you think I'm broken?
Fix me.
Because I'm no quitter.
Let's go.
[sirens waiIing]